Night Crawlers

     It is nearly a year since my little monsters were pulled from my womb and entered this crazy world. I created this blog almost a year ago thinking, I would need something to have that would be mine. Something that I could keep as a hobby that would be special to me.Something that would allow me to stay focused and challenged. However, nearly a year ago, I was a very new mother of twin boys. I don't think I truly understood that creating time for MY "special thing" was going to be a problem. It's been nearly a year, and I am finally able to post my first thoughts.

I can't even find time to go to the bathroom without them finding me :)

     I have seen my little monsters: eat, play, grow, and as every night comes to a close I look forward to their sleep. I am going to admit that bedtime has a major perk...they sleep...I get peace, but that is not why look forward to it so much. I love to go into their room, several times throughout the night and just watch. Occasionally, I might lightly touch their ears with my finger or brush their little toes with the back of my hand. I love straitening their blankets and making sure they stay tucked in. I love that they are completely vulnerable, with no worries. Mostly, I just love to hover lightly above their cribs, one by one, smiling down at my little boos. I can have the worst of days then go watch them sleep and forget, for those few minutes, that I have a grown up life that demands and takes.

Jayden&Judah

My favorite picture: Jayden&his father

     I know that there will come a day where I will not be able to sit and watch them. All too soon, they will be too old for my bedtime stories and good night kisses; not so long after that, they will be grown and out of the nest I have created for them. If only I could stop their aging a 4. Only then would I be able to keep my little monsters forever. For now, I will cherish these moments I have. I will take my precious sleeping pictures; I will caress their little ears, fingers and toes. In those moments, I will be the happiest woman in the world.